To celeste-lex.tumblr.com
I’ll try to post more art there instead of just reblogging several dozen things an hour. Let’s see ow that works out.
I’ve moved.
30 Days of Character Development!
HEY RPERS, what if I started a meme. It’s a simple meme. You answer one question every day for thirty days, and by the end of it, you hopefully learn even more about your character and become a better roleplayer because of it! 8Dc Y’all should totes spread this around.
Here’s the list.
Hipster Blog:
*follows you*
Me:
um are-
One Direction Blog:
*follows you*
Me:
are you -
Summer Blog:
*follows you*
Me:
i think you're-
Swag Blog:
*folows you*
Me:
ARE YOU FUCKNG LOST??
Porn Blog:
*follows you*
Me:
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?
Things school has taught me:
• Grades are more important than your morals,emotional & physical health
• How to hate people in general
• To want to quit life weekly
• How to text/eat in class without getting caught
• Why I will never amount to anything
“Pir8te Gar8”
Recovery
Expectation:
I feel a little bit better today!
Expectation:
I feel a little bit better today!
Expectation:
I feel a little bit better today!
Expectation:
Hey, I think I feel pretty good!
Expectation:
I guess that means I'm normal now! Time to go live a normal life!
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Reality:
I feel terrible.
Reality:
I still feel terrible.
Reality:
Is this seriously "recovery?" This sucks.
Reality:
I don't want to be thinking about all of this shit, this is exhausting.
Reality:
I guess today's not so bad.
Reality:
Today is bad again.
Reality:
Today is bad, but I think I'm starting to understand why.
Reality:
Wow, how long has it been since I cleaned my room?
Reality:
Cleaning my room didn't make me feel any better, but hey, room's clean.
Reality:
Whoa, okay, I need a shower. And maybe a haircut? Definitely a haircut.
Reality:
Everything sucks.
Reality:
Okay, except you.
Reality:
And you too, I didn't mean that you sucked.
Reality:
And that thing that I like is pretty cool.
Reality:
What was I talking about?
Reality:
Oh, THAT'S why my ex broke up with me.
Reality:
Wow, it turns out that was totally my fault?
Reality:
I was the jackass.
Reality:
Holy shit, I am such a jackass.
Reality:
Everybody must hate me.
Reality:
EVERYBODY HATES ME.
Reality:
Okay, how could everybody hate me? I mean, even if I'm a jackass, the Law of Averages dictates that SOMEBODY out there would probably like me anyway.
Reality:
Why would everybody hate me anyway, I'm awesome.
Reality:
...I'm not that awesome.
Reality:
Sometimes I'm pretty awesome, though.
Reality:
OH MY GOD I HATE MYSELF
Reality:
WHAT IS THIS, I'M RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED
Reality:
EVERYTHING SUCKS, THE WORLD SUCKS, I SUCK, NOBODY WILL EVER LOVE ME AND I WILL DIE UNMOURNED AND ALONE
Reality:
...What the hell was that about?
Reality:
Anyway, gonna get stuff done.
Reality:
Gonna get stuff done
Reality:
Getting stuff done
Reality:
WHY DO I FAIL AT EVERYTHING
Reality:
WALLOWING
Reality:
WALLOWING SOME MORE
Reality:
Okay NO MORE WALLOWING, we've talked about this, we're not doing this right now.
Reality:
...I can't believe that worked.
Reality:
Huh.
Reality:
So hang on, is this it?
Reality:
I mean, is this recovery? Am I doing this right? Is it going to be over soon?
Reality:
I just want to be normal.
Reality:
I am such a ridiculous trainwreck of a human being. How do I even exist? Why do I get to have friends? Why do you people talk to me? There's so much about myself that I really don't like, and there's probably even more stuff that I don't even know about that isn't too hot, either. And I'm working on it, but man, it's hard.
Reality:
...I just realized that everything I just said is normal.
Reality:
Oh my God, am I already normal?
Reality:
I'M ALREADY NORMAL. THIS IS NORMAL.
Reality:
It's...not exactly everything I was hoping for, to tell you the truth.
Reality:
...Oh well.
Reality:
Today was okay.
Reality:
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
